(This is a portion of a paper I submitted for a course this semester at UM.)
This semester has been challenging for me. Not only in terms of course work and the demands of being a teaching assistant, but on a personal front as well. It’s never easy to uproot a family to move across the country in an attempt to earn an advanced degree. The time away from home that is required to be successful is substantial; and while I have the upmost support of those closest to me, I still feel the weight of high expectations.
Because of these expectations I’ve made attempts this semester to better myself as an educator and a student. These efforts have been supported by the material that we’ve covered in this class, The Teaching Artist. Below are some of my biggest takeaways from each book we explored this semester, and while no means all-encompassing, these are some of the ideas I find myself reflect-ing on as the semester draws to a close.
Palmer – The Courage to Teach
I’m thankful that Parker Palmer’s book The Courage to Teach was the first that we read this semester. I found myself returning to the principles and ideas that Palmer discusses throughout my semester as both ways of refocusing my teaching and reassuring myself of my own aspirations. I had the opportunity to explore different teaching philosophies in Dr. Abril’s course this semester; and while many of the writings I explored with Dr. Abril were interesting (and challenging), I didn’t always feel like I extracted tangible ideas that I could use. Palmer’s book was differ-ent. I feel like Palmer was able to maintain a philosophical slant to his writing, while still sharing more practical ways of implementing his suggested teaching ideas. The fact that Palmer seemed more rooted in real-world examples allowed me to better grasp his messages and see ways I could implement the ideas myself.
Technique
One of the first points Palmer makes is, “good teaching cannot be reduced to technique; good teaching comes from the identity and integrity of the teacher.”1 This rather simple idea caused be to reconsider how I’ve experienced music education training throughout my life. As we dis-cussed in class, most music education training is focused on technique. Thinking back to my own experience as a student, I have had a lot of opportunities to practice my craft, but little class time as been devoted to discussions on what my personal identity as an educator is. Even this morning, I was reviewing video from recent performances and critiquing my conducting technique. Of course, technique is important, but I need to start finding time to think and reflect more on what my identity of a teacher is. As I start to better understand what that is, I can use things like conducting technique to express that to my students. I need to remember that “good teaching cannot be reduced to technique.” 2
Fear
“As a young teacher, I yearned for the day when I would know my craft so well, be so competent, so experienced, and so powerful, that I could walk into any classroom without feeling afraid. But now… I know that day will never come.”3
Fear is crippling. It fogs the mind and paralyzes action. Personally, fear manifests itself as self-doubt, and feelings of worthlessness. I picked a career in music because throughout my life it has given me joy, it’s been an outlet for my emotions (both good and bad), it’s connected me with people, and it’s provided a way for me to give back to others, through teaching.
Unfortunately, throughout the process of becoming a better artist and educator, feelings of fear and self-doubt have been entering my mind and it has severely impacted my ability to trust myself and led me to call into question what I’m doing with my life. At the present time it’s impossible to know if I’ve made the right career choice and honestly, at this point it’s probably too late to turn back and select another profession or career path. I’ve made my bed, as they say, and now I have to lie in it.
Being in academia is hard. Being a musician is hard. Fearing for your future is crushing. If I’m to continue to grow and, in the future, have a positive impact on my students it’s crucial that I find ways of dealing with my fears. One way is to consider the on-stage and backstage lives of musicians (and educators). “By looking backstage and seeing how human, how klutzy, how ordinary the mechanics of performance really are… I could ask myself ‘If they can do it, why not me?’ This backstage knowledge gave me the comfort of knowing that all heroes have feet of clay…”4 At the core of this passage is the realization that many of the fears I have are shared with my col-leagues and my teachers. Even Palmer feels this, “Driven by fear that my backstage ineptitude will be exposed, I strive to make my on-stage performance slicker and smoother… I conceal my own heart and am unable to weave the fabric of connectedness that teaching, and learning require.”5 To some extent, we all fear being found out as being less than we’re perceived to be; but we have to overcome that fear if we hope to be great educators. I’ll discuss ways I hope to deal with my fears when I discuss Eric Booth’s book The Music Teaching Artist’s Bible.
Brown – Make It Stick
Peter Brown’s book Make It Stick is going to be another great resource that I will return to throughout my life. At the moment I see Brown’s book to be more applicable to my student life than my teaching life. The information on how we learn will be very helpful in my own studying in my next two years in Miami. That being said, any academic classes I teach in the future will no doubt be influenced by Make It Stick.
Below are some of the key claims made in Make It Stick and how I used them as strategies this semester to help make myself a better learner and student.
Poor Judges of Learning
As Brown points out, “We are poor judges of when we are learning well and when we’re not. When the going is harder and slower, and it doesn’t feel productive, we are drawn to strategies that feel more fruitful, unaware that the gains from these strategies are often temporary.”6 I have never been a good “studier.” Throughout most of my schooling I was lucky enough to naturally be able to retain much of what I was being taught. If I focused my attention in class, took notes, and completed the required assignments I would rarely need to review before a test. The information would just stick (at least as long as the course unit lasted.) So, in college when I felt myself challenged by coursework I struggled to find ways to study efficiently. At the core of that struggle was this idea of being able to tell if my study methods were actually leading to any real success. Com-ing into this semester I still had these same questions. How can I insure that the time I set aside to study is actually going to pay off in tangible results? Like Brown says, “Learning is deeper and more durable when it’s effortful. Learning that’s easy is like writing in sand, here today and gone tomorrow.”7 Most of my personal study time is focused on scores. Not being blessed with the greatest inner ear I rely on outside sound sources to help me hear the music that I’m seeing. My best results come when I take the time to sit in front of a piano and play the different lines. Over time I’m able to internalize the different melodies and harmonies to the point where I can audiate or sing the various parts. An easier way to approach score study would be to listen to a recording. Recordings allow me to hear every line and harmony immediately and, since I’m not handicapped by my own (lack of) piano skills, I can cover much more material at a given time. In practice though, recordings don’t allow me truly to connect with the material. At the basis of this is the amount of effort it’s requiring of me. Specifically, listening to a recording doesn’t require me to actually read the notation. Later, when I return to the score without a recording I might be able to recall how a melody goes or perhaps some harmonic movement; but most of the inner voices and details of the piece will still be foreign to me. Recordings leave me with a false sense of under-standing. The pieces that I’ve take the time to really internalize are the ones that I’ve been most successful at teaching. They are also the ones that will require the least amount of re-learning in the future. That’s a great benefit of the more effortful study strategies; while they make take more time in the present moment they end up saving you time in the long run from not having to re-learn material.
Rereading
“Rereading text and massed practice of a skill or new knowledge are by far the preferred study strategies of learners of all stripes, but they’re also among the least productive… Rereading and massed practice give rise to feelings of fluency that are taken to be signs of mastery, but for true mastery or durability these strategies are largely a waste of time.”8 In Dr. Abril’s class, The Philosophy of Music Education, we were required to read a lot of books and articles, and I found most of the prose bordering on impenetrable. As Brown would have predicted, my default way of studying the material was often to reread the text, or worse highlight passages that I thought were important. After rereading sections I would begin to feel like I was understanding what I was read-ing, but as Brown notes, “Rising familiarity with a text and fluency in reading it can create an illusion of mastery”9 I was mistaking familiarity with the words with understanding the message. I could recognize the painting on the wall but had no insight as to what the artist was expressing. As the semester went on I started reading with a notepad next to me. After each paragraph or so I would try to summarize the thought or argument being presented. I would also create flow charts to try and visualize the author’s thought process as they reached their conclusions. When I found I couldn’t summarize or follow the author’s thought process I would resist the urge to claim that the author hadn’t made their point and instead go back to the gap in my outline. Where do I think the hole in the argument is? Does my summary of that part truly match what the author is saying? Most of the time I would find that I didn’t have a good grasp of what was being said. At that point I would need to reread the material, but it wasn’t done blindly; I had a specific goal in returning to that material. Once I started implementing this new study method I was much better at understand-ing the readings in class, which then lead to me being better prepared to participate in the class discussions.
Testing
Keeping on the subject of Dr. Abril’s class for a moment, I think I would have been more successful in the course if we had some sort of quiz or test at the beginning of each class. “In virtu-ally all areas of learning, you build better mastery when you use testing as a tool to identify and bring up your areas of weakness.”10 There’s of course the added incentive to read all the material knowing that not doing so will be reflected in a poor quiz grade; but more importantly is feedback that the quiz could have provided. Even though we have class discussions on the readings, it was impossible to touch on every aspect of the writer’s arguments. Undoubtedly, there were parts of the readings that I didn’t understand and there was no way for me to know as there was no vehicle for feedback. Short quizzes, asking me to use the material in the readings could have helped high-light any gaps in my knowledge.
Retrieval
Returning to my personal study habits, retrieval is an aspect of my score studying that I struggle to practice. Of course, there’s rereading the score but, “retrieval practice—recalling facts or concepts or events from memory— is a more effective learning strategy than review by reread-ing… Periodic practice arrests forgetting, strengthens retrieval routes, and is essential for hanging onto the knowledge you want to gain.”11 A recent way I’ve been trying to retrieve information is by singing through large portions of, or even the entirety of, a piece of music. I’m often surprised at how little I can get through before forgetting what comes next. Like I mentioned earlier, I can recognize the piece when I hear, I know how the major themes sound, but linking together each phrase is more challenging. As I sing, attempting to recall material I’ve learned, I make note of places I make mistakes. Sometimes this is simply not knowing what comes next but more often than not it’s misremembering. I might skip a phrase or forget a phrase extension that happens. To review my errors, I’ll sing into a recorder. Later, I can playback my attempt with the score in front of me to see how I did. This helps me highlight the portions of the score that I need to spend more time on, in front of the piano of course. An even greater challenge is trying to sing through some of the inner voices. Honestly, I often find myself completely at a loss to remember how the 3rd clarinet part goes. It might be impossible to accomplish this goal for every piece and every part but at least this gives me a foundation for my study habits. No longer am I staring at the page, hoping that some of it will sink in.
Duke – Intelligent Music Teaching
This was the first opportunity I’ve had to reread Robert Duke’s book Intelligent Music Teaching since my undergraduate studies at The University of Texas. This book served as our text for two different music education courses and it has served as a backbone of my teaching strategies ever since. It was interesting to have a chance to reexamine some of the arguments Duke makes and to see how my thoughts on education have changed in the ten years since. The portions of the book that deal with What to Teach and Assessment were the most impactful for me on this reading of the book.
Skills vs. Content
“Expertise is predicted not on content but on skills. This is not to say that content is unimportant. Of course, content is the stuff about which experts think, but it’s the thinking and not the content that forms the basis of expertise.”12 If music classes were only focused on content we would require that every beginner clarinet student take classes in the history of the clarinet. Only by doing, actually playing the clarinet can you start to build skills. Of course, as Duke points out, that’s not as simple as it may sound. It’s not enough to simply define skills as, “play a major scale” or “turn a beautiful phrase.” Educators have to take these “constellations of individual component behaviors”13 and clearly define all the composite skills that are necessary. Teaching then becomes focused on instructions that help students build on these component skills. I believe this is where most young teachers fail; assuming they have learned a sufficient level of musicianship in their studies, they likely don’t have a firm grasp on what all the necessary skills are to produce that musicianship. They end up falling back on broad phrases like “make that more legato” or “balance to the melody”. On the surface those aren’t bad things to tell a student, but unless they understand all the skills to make that happen they will ultimately be unsuccessful.
Course Planning
I imagine myself in my first year of collegiate teaching, preparing my syllabus. Prior to Duke, I would have considered the material I want to cover – let’s say a certain number of chapters in a textbook. I would then spread that out over the number of class meetings in a semester and voila a planned course.
This isn’t unlike how the Norton History of Western Music approaches their teacher’s guide. It offers different breakdowns of the material based on the number of weeks you have to cover it, be it a semester or an entire year. Each class meeting is assigned certain readings and recordings for you to help guide your students through the material. This is perfectly fine if your hope is to ex-pose your students to people and pieces from the past; but it doesn’t encourage the students to think the musicologist. A musicologist doesn’t focus on the what or how so much as they focus on the why.
I think back to back to a class I took in 7th grade that always puzzled me as to why anyone would want to study it; geography. It was one of the most horrible learning experiences in my life. Along with all the maps I was forced to color; I learned the major exports of Chile, the height of Mt. Everest, how many cattle there are in Texas, and that was Geography. I had no idea what geographers actually think about. Years later I was at an art exhibit and I saw maps that used different projections to show the Earth. The artist was trying to shed light on the ways our everyday maps are bias towards Western culture, but I couldn’t help but to think back to my geography class. Why is it that the most common type of map uses the Mercator projection? What are some other map projections and why might we use them? What even is cartography? I had never conceptualized that cartography (and geography) as a set of problems to be solved. How do you represent a spherical shape on a flat surface in a way that’s actually useful to the user? What a fascinating thing. Why didn’t we study that in 7th grade? I imagine part of the reason is that it’s hard to test for those things. It’s much easier to test students on the height of Mt. Everest and the exports of Chile and so that’s what goes on the test. If you asked a teacher what they wanted their students to leave their class with they would likely say things like, “problem solving”, or “a willingness to explore new ideas”, but if we don’t find ways to work towards those goals (including the creation of assessments that allow the students opportunities to try) we’re likely to end up with a class that is simply based on facts and figures instead of one that’s based in the why. By staring with the end in mind, with asking yourself “what do you expect your students to be like,”14 you can better design a curriculum that will engage and impact your students.
Booth – The Music Teaching Artist’s Bible
Inside the Liminal Zone
As I mentioned earlier, fear has a power effect on me. As I come to the end of my first year in Miami and reflect back on this year and look ahead to the two remaining, I ask myself how to best move ahead.
“The liminal zone is the inner place where we create the connections that make our experiences of art, where we come to love new music, becoming active participants, or we choose to direct our scare free time, attention, and discretionary dollars in other ways.”15 I think my greatest chance at success lies at turning my fears into acceptance. To find my own liminal zone where I can em-brace my unknowns, allow myself to feel uncomfortable, and hopefully start to free myself from the belief that I must know everything in order to be successful. Palmer says that, “teaching is a daily exercise in vulnerability,” 16 but I believe that being a student is also an exercise in vulnerability. It’s ok to not have all the answers, and it’s ok to be vulnerable, live in that liminal space and enjoy it for what it is. I’m lucky to have chosen a professional where I’ll always be surrounded by fellow learners and as we circle around our “great thing”17 we can learn from and encourage each other.
To close, I’d like to share one of my favorite quotes from Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet.
You are so young, so much before all beginning, and I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and two to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live every-thing. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer. 18
Bibliograhy
Booth, Eric. The Music Teaching Artist’s Bible: Becoming a Virtuoso Educator. Oxford ; New York: Oxford University Press, 2009.
Brown, Peter C., Henry L. Roediger III, and Mark A. McDaniel. Make It Stick: The Science of Successful Learning.Cambridge, Massachusetts: Belknap Press: An Imprint of Harvard Univer-sity Press, 2014.
Duke, Robert A. Intelligent Music Teaching: Essays on the Core Principles of Effective Instruc-tion. Learning and Behavior Resources, 2009.
Palmer, Parker J. The Courage to Teach: Exploring the Inner Landscape of a Teacher’s Life. 20th edition. Hoboken, NJ: Jossey-Bass, 2017.
Rilke, Rainer Maria. Letters to a Young Poet. Translated by Stephen Mitchell. New York: Modern Library, 2001.
Footnotes
- Parker J. Palmer, The Courage to Teach: Exploring the Inner Landscape of a Teacher’s Life (San Francisco: Jossey-Bass, 2017), 10. ↩
- Palmer, 10. ↩
- Palmer, 58. ↩
- Palmer, 28. ↩
- Palmer, 30. ↩
- Peter C. Brown, Henry L Roediger III, and Mark A. McDaniel, Make It Stick: The Science of Successful Learning (Cambridge: Belknap Press, 2014), 3. ↩
- Brown, 3. ↩
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- Brown, 15. ↩
- Brown, 5. ↩
- Brown, 3-4. ↩
- Robert A. Duke, Intelligent Music Teaching: Essays on the Core Principles of Effective Instruction. Learning and Behavior Resources, 2009, 32. ↩
- Duke, 35. ↩
- Duke, 73. ↩
- Eric Booth, The Music Teaching Artist’s Bible: Becoming a Virtuoso Educator. Oxford; New York: Oxford University Press, 2009, 61. ↩
- Palmer, 17. ↩
- Palmer, 110. ↩
- Rainer Maria Rikle, Letters to a Young Poet. New York: Modern Library, 2001, 34-35. ↩